Thursday

From the Gospel of St Mathew

36. След това отива с тях Иисус на едно място, наричано Гетсимания, и казва на учениците: поседете тука, докле ида там да се помоля.
37. И като взе със Себе Си Петра и двамата Зеведееви синове, почна да скърби и да тъгува.
38. Тогава им казва Иисус: душата Ми е прескръбна до смърт; останете тук и бъдете будни с Мене.
39. И като се поотдалечи, падна на лицето Си, молеше се и думаше: Отче Мой, ако е възможно, нека Ме отмине тая чаша, обаче не както Аз искам, а както Ти.
40. И дохожда при учениците и ги намира да спят, и казва на Петра: толкоз ли не можахте един час да стоите будни с Мене?
41. Бъдете будни и се молете, за да не паднете в изкушение: духът е бодър, а плътта - немощна.
42. Пак като се отдалечи повторно, помоли се, казвайки: Отче Мой, ако не може Ме отмина тая чаша, без да я изпия, нека бъде Твоята воля.
43. А като дойде, намира ги пак да спят, понеже очите им бяха натегнали.
44. И като ги остави, отдалечи се пак и се помоли трети път, като каза същите думи.

And again, JCS:

I Only Want To Say (Gethsemane)

[In the garden at Gethsemane]

(Jesus)
I only want to say
If there is a way
Take this cup away from me
For I don't want to taste its poison
Feel it burn me,
I have changed I'm not as sure
As when we started
Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired
Listen surely I've exceeded
Expectations
Tried for three years
Seems like thirty
Could you ask as much
From any other man?

But if I die
See the saga through
And do the things you ask of me
Let them hate me, hit me, hurt me
Nail me to their tree
I'd want to know
I'd want to know my God
I'd want to know
I'd want to know my God
I'd want to see
I'd want to see my God
I'd want to see
I'd want to see my God
Why I should die
Would I be more noticed
Than I ever was before?
Would the things I've said and done
Matter any more?
I'd have to know
I'd have to know my Lord
I'd have to know
I'd have to know my Lord
I'd have to see
I'd have to see my Lord
I'd have to see
I'd have to see my Lord

If I die what will be my reward?
If I die what will be my reward?
I'd have to know
I'd have to know my Lord
I'd have to know
I'd have to know my Lord

Why, why should I die?
Oh, why should I die?
Can you show me now
That I would not be killed in vain?
Show me just a little
Of your omnipresent brain
Show me there's a reason
For your wanting me to die
You're far too keen on where and how
But not so hot on why
Alright I'll die!
Just watch me die!
See how, see how I die!
Oh, just watch me die!

Then I was inspired
Now I'm sad and tired
After all I've tried for three years
Seems like ninety
Why then am I scared
To finish what I started
What you started
I didn't start it
God thy will is hard
But you hold every card
I will drink your cup of poison
Nail me to your cross and break me
Bleed me, beat me
Kill me, take me now
Before I change my mind...

This is the song that sent me to a journey to Christ. It is still one of my favorite songs.

Music is best.