Jun 26, 2006

A Question of Decision

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all thеse defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

Neil Gaiman

No. This is a conscious decision I’m making and I want to be very emphatic about it. I’m not going to hate love. I was told I was ‘indecisive’ which meant ‘without blind faith in my own decisions’. This is true, I have made too many wrong decisions and they are not a good basis for faith. Instead, I’ll put my faith in love. It doesn’t matter if it’s part of my immediate universe, like it doesn’t matter if I’ve seen Taj Mahal with my own eyes. It’s there, and the world has more beauty because of it.





The world has one cynic less, as of today.


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