Mar 24, 2005

Remodelled Me

A shirt, a skirt, a formal coat, and high heels (aka hell heels). This is my outfit for my short-term office job with another institution within the Bulgarian government. 9-to-5s with suitable ties, as Fish said. Interpreting at meetings, presentations, translating memos, reports, going to lunch with the boss, trying to regain my long lost social skills. Hurrying after work to pick up the kids. Horrors and nightmares! Ok, I'm exaggerating. The heels are not that high but still uncomfortable to drive in.

Anyway, this sudden move was part of my strategy to show how flexible I am - when 10 friends tell me to go out of the house and mix with people, I comply! As I said, I am not the stubborn, self-righteous bitch I look;)

Rada is pleased with my new look, although she’s a little resentful about the eternal you-are-prettier-than-me issue. I’m not prettier. She is more beautiful, more sociable, and even wiser than me.

The other day we had this conversation about her father. I said he is a good person, a good daddy, and always will be, but he’s simply not a good man for me. She said, ‘Then you should get another man!’. My immediate response was thoughtless, though truthful: ‘Where shall I put him?’. And she observed, with the savvy of an experienced woman: ‘Mom, men are not objects. They are not wardrobes or cupboards!’ I was flabbergasted. My five-year-old knew something is wrong with my attitude to the male part of humankind. I stand corrected. Men are not objects. Repeat, men are not objects.

On the cultural side, at last I’ve got something to look forward to. May 19th:D Episode Three. I watched the trailer at least 10 times – it’s great. I also saw the horror movie (ok, psychological thriller) ‘Identity’ on a sunny afternoon between deadlines. I usually can’t stand blood but I needed some kind of emotion, I needed to hear my heart thumping and to feel alive. It’s a good movie, I love plot twists, they compensate for much of the boredom that comes beforehand. While on the movie topic, here are some titles from my ‘recently viewed’ list.

-Big Lebowski – I loved the slapstick humor, the laid back atmosphere, the ugly language (It’s f***ed Duuuude).
- Requiem for a Dream – may give a more sensitive viewer nightmares. Nightmares, however, are considered by some psychologists to cleanse the unconscious of the dreamer. They are a self-preserving mechanism of the mind, throwing out the garbage and keeping your daytime personality sane. Or so I hope. The movie starred Jared Leto, my new wet dreams material, who also played Alexander’s sweetheart in Oliver Stone’s movie, and gave me the warm feeling that I share the same taste in men with the great Greek;)
- Pi – another Aronofsky movie. Does not bear comments. OST just as superb as that of the previous movie.

Musically, I am disappointed. I created an account in http://audioscrobbler.com

but it isn't working, so I'm not gonna tell what my new internet nick is;)

I listened to the early Beatles, Deep Purple ballads, Isihia, Anathema (latest album), Jeff Wayne's War of the World. The chances of anything coming from Mars are a million to one:)

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